Have you ever felt that you were disconnected in some way? It could be from a number of things – your family, friends, spouse, where you live, where you work…
I have been feeling this way – a lot – lately. It’s a tough thing to figure out, too. There are days when I just feel blah and there is no reason for it. I’m not depressed or happy, normally I feel a bit bored (even when I have things to do) and have no motivation to do anything. Recently, I’ve been discovering why and it’s been nice to finally put my finger on it.
It’s been the little things that are pointing it out for me and more than likely, the holidays, too. When you are an adult it’s harder to make those strong connections and deeply rooted friendships that you have always been so used to making, easily. Typically, I am the type who makes a friend by a simple introduction. Doesn’t take much and I am down to be friends, but it’s been harder over the last 8 years (or so) to keep those friends or to really feel close to them. It’s been weighing on me heavily, but I’ve managed to psychoanalyze it enough to put it in a better perspective these days.
Which brings me to my reason for this post. Last week we got a special surprise package in the mail. It was addressed to me, but I hadn’t ordered anything, so I immediately inquired with the hubs. Just in case I was about to ruin some kind of surprise. When I was sure it was ok to open, I did, and got the most wonderful surprise! An old college friend of mine had sent us our own “1st Married Christmas” ornament. It had Mr. & Mrs with the year and a picture of us from our wedding. My heart was so warmed and I could barely believe it. I sat down and just stared at this thoughtful, yet incredibly impactful, gesture.
You see, this is extra special because my friend and I had just chatted about how I found it incredibly hard to find one of these as a gift for my new husband. My intention was to start some kind of tradition, but wasn’t able to make that come alive on my own. With this one small gift, my friend, made all the doubt & worry about feeling disconnected so small & insignificant. I realized I do have a rich life and some incredible connections with people. I guess, it’s hard to remember that, when you focus on what you think you don’t have (especially immediately in front of you).
A lesson I will try hard to remember and a feeling I will hold onto as long as I can. Thank you, to my friend, I cherish my new gift and you.